My life begins in May

The last 5 months were unbelievable. I eat and sleep to wake up to sleep again. I told myself life must be more than this. However, this explains how I can update my blog so regularly you actually think I work in the press. It's not like I can't blog again when school starts but you have to agree with me when I say there are 24 hours only in a day, and much more things comes first. Mind you, I don't want to be a full time blogger. It's not a real job and it sounds stupid. Cool, but still stupid.


Anyway, May is coming and my holiday shall come to an end. let's just pay 1 minute of silence for that.


Well life moves on. And this time. It's bound to be a little different. For the past 5 years, I studied whereby every year I share class with the same faces and the same gang of friends. School policy- smart people should gang up together. And there were no surprise until SPM or 'O' level finished. Now since the time has come to make decisions and make path for ourselves, most of my close friends decided to leave for either this or that.


And me, unlike Robert Frost who said in his poetry 'two roads diverge in a yellow wood and sorry I could not travel both', I have one road and I am sorry I have to walk it...... Sijil Tinggi Pelajaran Malaysia (STPM).
Or in direct translation - Certificate for highly educated people of Malaysia.


If I'm not mistaken, it is rated as the world's no.4 toughest and pointless examination. In Malaysia, every 18 year old would prefer not to take up this examination. Almost everyone who can afford to go to college flee to college, everyone who cannot afford college flee to cheaper colleges. And the Malays go to a special programme call the Matriculation (a much easier form of A level, but is not recognised by any other country) So the leftovers are people like me and perhaps some of you. Face it, Matriculation was formed to give chance to Malays and bumiputera. Chinese and Indians that came later were perceived to be much smarter and is of course cut off from many opportunities offered by the Government. Malays and bumiputera are not stupid, they never was but they are spoilt. The longer they are spoilt the weaker they become, if Meritocracy were to be applied to our system. In 2 years time, there will be lesser of them in our local universities, but in 10 years time, they will eventually pick up and proudly says 'Chinese also not so smart lah'.


When it comes to study and education in Malaysia, I was naive before, I am not now.


It all started when I was young and I didn't know any better. I actually believed that the purpose to study is to equip myself with knowledge, to enhance my mind and become a better and intellectual person.


Siao ahh, that is for Ang Mo Lang in Americas. In Malaysia, we study hard hard is to get STRAIGHT As!


Other than that, chiak sai!


I came thus far, and no, for public exams in our country, I do not see it anymore as education. I see it as a job. This job has a target, the target is to get As.


So I got my job and I'm making myself working for 10 hours a day in order to meet my target. It's not that bad after all. Most working adults got to work 10 hours a day. If they don't perform, they either remain where they are forever or get fired. The world is round.


We may lived without wars (I don't like to call it 'in harmony') but sure this is a complicated society.


My life begins in May.